"War should belong to the tragic past, to history: it should find no place on humanity's agenda for the future."
~Pope John Paul II
4 months. 16 weeks and 122 days. Time that I spent inside a room or most likely an arena. An arena that is made for war.I can not consider it as a room for I know even though it's kinda hard to see or distinguished by ones naked eye there are flames inside our soul. Flames that we are trying to hide from each other.The Flames of war that is beginning to rise.
As days passes by we still manage to keep it up in ourselves trying to be civil to each other.Trying to hide it from our teachers but as we keep it in the depths of our heart the more it became the flames of war.
In that arena I learned to become civil and to be careful of my words and be careful not to open up myself to the enemy. Well you see when you are in a battle you can never be friend with your enemies. But still I learn to like some of them. I learn to know who they are by observing them. But observing is not a very good basis to know a person or to conclude things about someone. But because there is a flame inside of me I stopped knowing them and vow loyalty to my group.
Then the awkwardness continues..It feels like my favorite ALL TIME war in the world had been reborn. It was like I'm in a COLD WAR. A war with indirect conflict rather than a direct one.A war without honor nor victory.The war is all inside our minds. We might not fight with cannons, guns or swords but we continue to ruin oneself by thinking bad of each other. Thinking mistakes and bad mouthing each other. More likely back stabbing. Smiling at each others face but when we turn our backs bad mouthing each other.The war is most likely inflecting to the emotional aspects of each group. If you're weak. You are nothing.
The animosity grows more deeper.. It was like everyone is just waiting for this COLD WAR to become a real one. A war where you can hit each other for a kill. A war who will determined who's the best or who's right and who's wrong. The anticipation really kills everyone. All of us are just waiting for that thing. Waiting who will the first one to attack.
Then that day came.When someone already started the war. We all thought to keep this as a secret from our adviser but you see. There are no secrets that can be keep for a long time. The war just rages. And it became an all out war.
Our adviser. Well my heart really melt when she cried in front of us and beg for us to stop that so called war and put out the fire of hatred that is inside of each of us.She is begging but no one wants to stand up and put an end to this war. Well there are two but the others just can't.
Well I admit that when our adviser said that she is more likely in favor of the other group in the start I was very disappointed. Really disappointed but because I already love her I throw away all the disappointments and try to understand her.
As what I am saying there are only two person who wants to end that war.After knowing that our adviser stopped begging.Then she let us do what we want she sends us home without even talking to us.
The Next day you can still feel the animosity in the air..Our adviser let us seat apart and turn to our groups. Then again she talked to us. This time not begging but hearing everybody's thought. Most likely we cried. Specially me when our group render our thoughts to them. That ever since we are juniors we are FAILURES. A big Failure that's what they called our group. Only to find out that they have the same situation. Well most likely they all call us FAILURE. WE ARE ALL FAILURES. What a great revelation....
I never thought that the other party was also called as Failures. Well I really don't know and I don't know what to say about that aspect. It was like I become tongue tied.
Then we keep on talking and talking saying what is inside our minds. Until we understand each other.
Who says that every wars ends in a tragic ending. Well whoever said that is wrong because there is once a war that ended with a happy ending. And that is our war. The SPJ VS. SHAKESPEARE WAR had ended with great happiness.Well those names are not really need to be forgotten. We grow with them they are part of us. All we need to do is to accept each other. Become friends for each other. Become brothers and sisters and accept that we are not all perfect. Most likely accept that we are all EINSTEIN.
I feel really relieved and already at peace. Well I just can't describe the happiness that is inside me. Happiness without pretensions. Just full and 100% HAPPINESS.. Now I know what to do.I can already call our room as a room with friends and not an arena with enemies . Now step by step I'm learning to like the name Einstein.Well actually I already love it. I LOVE THE NAME AND ALSO I LOVED THE PEOPLE WHO COMPLETE THAT NAME. Not just the SPJ people but the Shakespeare people. Well let's just drop those names because together we are EINSTEIN.And as one we will continue to make memories. Memories that will linger in all of us.Memories with just pure happiness.
Like what Pope John Paul II said Wars should not hinder the future but should be left out in the past.Let us all live in the future and not in the past!
Now I can really say that the war has ended. La Guerre A Clore!
I'm an SPJ. They are also SHAKESPEARE but together we are Einstein.We are brothers and sisters.
I LOVE MY SECTION! I LOVE EINSTEIN!
As days passes by we still manage to keep it up in ourselves trying to be civil to each other.Trying to hide it from our teachers but as we keep it in the depths of our heart the more it became the flames of war.
In that arena I learned to become civil and to be careful of my words and be careful not to open up myself to the enemy. Well you see when you are in a battle you can never be friend with your enemies. But still I learn to like some of them. I learn to know who they are by observing them. But observing is not a very good basis to know a person or to conclude things about someone. But because there is a flame inside of me I stopped knowing them and vow loyalty to my group.
Then the awkwardness continues..It feels like my favorite ALL TIME war in the world had been reborn. It was like I'm in a COLD WAR. A war with indirect conflict rather than a direct one.A war without honor nor victory.The war is all inside our minds. We might not fight with cannons, guns or swords but we continue to ruin oneself by thinking bad of each other. Thinking mistakes and bad mouthing each other. More likely back stabbing. Smiling at each others face but when we turn our backs bad mouthing each other.The war is most likely inflecting to the emotional aspects of each group. If you're weak. You are nothing.
The animosity grows more deeper.. It was like everyone is just waiting for this COLD WAR to become a real one. A war where you can hit each other for a kill. A war who will determined who's the best or who's right and who's wrong. The anticipation really kills everyone. All of us are just waiting for that thing. Waiting who will the first one to attack.
Then that day came.When someone already started the war. We all thought to keep this as a secret from our adviser but you see. There are no secrets that can be keep for a long time. The war just rages. And it became an all out war.
Our adviser. Well my heart really melt when she cried in front of us and beg for us to stop that so called war and put out the fire of hatred that is inside of each of us.She is begging but no one wants to stand up and put an end to this war. Well there are two but the others just can't.
Well I admit that when our adviser said that she is more likely in favor of the other group in the start I was very disappointed. Really disappointed but because I already love her I throw away all the disappointments and try to understand her.
As what I am saying there are only two person who wants to end that war.After knowing that our adviser stopped begging.Then she let us do what we want she sends us home without even talking to us.
The Next day you can still feel the animosity in the air..Our adviser let us seat apart and turn to our groups. Then again she talked to us. This time not begging but hearing everybody's thought. Most likely we cried. Specially me when our group render our thoughts to them. That ever since we are juniors we are FAILURES. A big Failure that's what they called our group. Only to find out that they have the same situation. Well most likely they all call us FAILURE. WE ARE ALL FAILURES. What a great revelation....
I never thought that the other party was also called as Failures. Well I really don't know and I don't know what to say about that aspect. It was like I become tongue tied.
Then we keep on talking and talking saying what is inside our minds. Until we understand each other.
Who says that every wars ends in a tragic ending. Well whoever said that is wrong because there is once a war that ended with a happy ending. And that is our war. The SPJ VS. SHAKESPEARE WAR had ended with great happiness.Well those names are not really need to be forgotten. We grow with them they are part of us. All we need to do is to accept each other. Become friends for each other. Become brothers and sisters and accept that we are not all perfect. Most likely accept that we are all EINSTEIN.
I feel really relieved and already at peace. Well I just can't describe the happiness that is inside me. Happiness without pretensions. Just full and 100% HAPPINESS.. Now I know what to do.I can already call our room as a room with friends and not an arena with enemies . Now step by step I'm learning to like the name Einstein.Well actually I already love it. I LOVE THE NAME AND ALSO I LOVED THE PEOPLE WHO COMPLETE THAT NAME. Not just the SPJ people but the Shakespeare people. Well let's just drop those names because together we are EINSTEIN.And as one we will continue to make memories. Memories that will linger in all of us.Memories with just pure happiness.
Like what Pope John Paul II said Wars should not hinder the future but should be left out in the past.Let us all live in the future and not in the past!
Now I can really say that the war has ended. La Guerre A Clore!
I'm an SPJ. They are also SHAKESPEARE but together we are Einstein.We are brothers and sisters.
I LOVE MY SECTION! I LOVE EINSTEIN!
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